Embracing Change: Personal Transformation Through Death and Rebirth
We are diving into some vulnerable topics today on the podcast because I want to talk about something that's been happening in my life. I see so many of you experiencing a similar vibration in your own lives right now too which is the theme of burning it all down.
I want to talk about closing and releasing cycles that we're continuously in as humans.
What do we do when these cycles are happening?
How do we move through them?
What tools can we bring into our lives to not lose our minds during the decay of being human?
And this also means there is a rebirth of being human, right? It's not just one side of the spectrum.
Have you ever felt like this new version of you is being birth but you don’t know what they look like or what feels like yet? They’re still intangible and unformed, and yet you know something is coming as the old version of you has died away? You know the old you is gone.
In this week’s podcast you’ll discover…
What happens when the old version of you dies (inner panic, and gripping to stay the same..)
If you’ve ever been through an awakening or re-birth period in your life, you know how beautiful and painful it can truly be. It can make you grip to stay the same, grip to the old ways, and get stuck in a cycle of outdated behaviour. I call this karmic loops.
What happens when you get stuck in an old outdated version of yourself?
What happens when you’re afraid to burn it down or you’re constantly burning it down for the wrong reasons?
What happens when the old version of you has to die, but you are safe in that version, right?
You only know that version. How can you exist beyond what you've known and trust that you're safe to birth this next version of yourself, especially when you don't know what that next version looks like?
You don't know what they do.
You don't know if they're happy.
You know, there's an inkling when we're in these portals where you think “I know this shift will bring me greater happiness, but the consciousness, the conscious mind says, I don't actually know that, right?”
The conscious mind wants to trust, but the subconscious mind is thinking “no, please don't move past where we are right now. Because right now we're good. We're alive. We're fed. Everything seems to be okay.”
Are you avoiding mourning yourself?
It's terrifying to sit in the space of not knowing who you are becoming, while also knowing you've let go of so many versions of yourself so many times in this life.They still exist rooted within you as like a fragment of you. But when we move through these portals, there's no going back, right? That person, that version of you that you lived for so long is gone. And if we don't take a moment to say, “wow, I actually am mourning a version of me and releasing a version of me.”
And if you haven't, there's a lot of times in my life where I've sat there and said, “wow, I didn't mourn me. I didn't mourn myself. I missed that one. I missed that mourning.”
It's a really, really deep experience. As I'm saying this, I'm just thinking about all the times in my life where I didn't allow myself to miss this version of me, or even allow myself to witness that she was gone. The part that could dance till 4am, the part of me that wanted to go and dance at events and dance to trance music and be around a lot of people. The part of me that was cool just being in public.
What happens when we forget to mourn these pieces of ourselves?
I’ve had to come to terms with the fact that there are a lot of things about that version of me or those versions of me that I will never be again. Can you relate?
This conversation is an extremely vulnerable deep dive into what really happens when you’re decaying in the underworld during transformational moments.
And so if you're reading this and this is resonating with you and you're feeling a little lost and you're feeling like you are in this formless state between who you were and who you're becoming, I want you to know that you're not alone. I want you to know that you're not crazy. I want you to know that like, it's normal. You’re not crazy. You're in this period of disintegration. So can you be in it without judging yourself, without trying to force yourself to move through the cycle of rebirth faster than you “should”.
If you’ve ever felt the chaos, heartbreak, pain, loss, and soul crushing experience of going through a death and rebirth period in your life (of which there will likely be many) this weeks episode will help you meet that chaos with peace and ease.
Make sure you check next weeks episode on Embracing Change through Astrological Tides to start connecting even more dots in this life changing moments.
I am riding the waves with you.
Lots of love,
Vika
