Healing From Burnout, My Road to Recovery
I am going to dive into a very personal topic today. I feel like that's what we do here. We have vulnerable conversations that open up pathways into healing, right? And this one is going to be, I feel like a dance of many things coming together in order to help show you guys how many moving parts there are working on illuminating and helping you heal when you ask the universe for help, and even when you don't.
The universe is always working with us to reveal and help us heal, in my humble opinion. Something that's come up over the last little while was, as I've been moving through some chronic pain in my body, wanting to find the energetics behind the pain itself. These migraines I've been working through for the last year have been crippling, can you relate?
I've put on between eight and 10 pounds, depending on what part of my cycle I'm in, which is something that has not happened since I was 15/16 years old (in the exact nodal transit that we're in right now, funny enough, isn't that interesting. with the Libra South node in my first house) I realized this the other day, and I started to really tap into what is similar about this time period for me to that time period back then. And I started to ask a lot of other questions, but the main thing I started to ask recently was the universe for help and for guidance to help me get to the core of the issue.
With the chronic pain, the fatigue, the energy I've just been living in for the last year, it got to a point right before Mercury retrograde, and the eclipse season where I really got into an angry state around being absolutely done feeling this. And that anger pushed me to a place of just breaking down and asking the universe to guide me to really untangle what I've been working through physically and why it's here. With all of this, I used my voice (out loud) to speak to the universe over the last couple months.
I asked for guidance from the universe, my ancestors, and guides to help me find the answers to what I've been going through. I said something along the lines of “help me find the answers to the pain I've been experiencing in my body, help me find the clarity I need, I'm done living in this extreme amount of discomfort and dis-ease.” And I knew all of this was very psychosomatic. And I also knew that there was something physically happening inside of my body, creating all of this. I knew that root that core, for me, at least particularly, it always comes down to some sort of spiritual dis-ease. And so when I spoke this out and asked for help, I asked my ancestors for help, I asked my guides for help, I asked universe source God, all the beings that are holding us in my view for support and help and clarity, things started to happen. Very interestingly, I had to be pushed to this point of anger and frustration and almost like a boiling point to see what was going on in greater clarity.
All of this led me to the physical, spiritual and emotional connection to being burnt-the-fuck out.
So what is burnout, anyway?
Burnout is a state of emotional, physical, and mental exhaustion caused by excessive and prolonged stress. It occurs when you feel overwhelmed, emotionally drained, and unable to meet constant demands. Burnout is often associated with work-related stress but can also stem from other areas of life, such as caregiving, relationships, or personal responsibilities, or radical shifts and massive changes happening in your life. (OR like when you’re currently watching the collapse of civilization happening all around you since 2020.)
Some common symptoms of burnout include:
Feeling exhausted and depleted: Burnout can leave you feeling tired and drained most of the time, even when you haven't engaged in physically or mentally demanding activities.
Reduced performance: Burnout can lead to a decline in productivity and effectiveness both at work and in other areas of life. You may find it difficult to concentrate or accomplish tasks.
Cynicism and detachment: You may develop a negative or cynical attitude toward work, relationships, or other aspects of your life. You may also feel emotionally detached from your responsibilities and those around you.
Feeling ineffective: Burnout can make you feel like you're not making a difference or that your efforts are not appreciated. This can contribute to a sense of disillusionment and lack of motivation.
Physical symptoms: Burnout can manifest in physical symptoms such as headaches, muscle tension, insomnia, or changes in appetite.
And so much more…
Can you relate?
In this episode I talk all about the physical, spiritual and emotional connection between burnout and these massive realization as well as the permission slip it gave me to release and let go.
But here’s the added bonus.
We forgot to mourn…
Remember the world pre-2020? I do. What I realized through a cathartic cry on my yoga mat was the world we lived in is gone and we haven't mourned it yet.
Where was the funeral for the world that we once lived in? Because I didn't get to have a mourning process. I just kept going because that's what we had to do.
And now I'm in this realization where the conversation we had in episode 90, where we talked about saying goodbye to who you were, these old versions of ourselves, and no one teaches us to mourn them.
No one teaches us that when you step into a new version of yourself or a piece of you dies away, you're going to process a mourning period, even while we're healing and we're doing this somatic releasing and trauma healing and therapy. And all these things are stepping into these new versions of ourselves continuously.
That's a loss in the sense that you have lost a version of you that you lived in for a very long time. And did you mourn that version?
Now what I'm seeing more and more clearly is did we as a collective skip over mourning our world as we knew it. And I think about a lot of the cultures, you know, after world war one or world war two, or these massive events that happen in history, so many more than just those two, but seemingly overnight, the world is different.
It's gone. The world you knew is gone. The safety you knew is gone.
I feel like we truly don't take a moment to process the fact that we have lost something we knew, something we loved, something that was what we felt very safe in often.
And as I was sitting with this and moving into these somatics, releasing my hips, flooding these tears, letting myself just process the fact that the world we knew is gone. And I miss a lot of pieces of myself in that world. And how do I step into this next version of myself and find as much joy and happiness as she felt, right? That's uncomfortable and scary. And there's a lot of shadow work in it. And I started to think about the metaphysical energies of our illnesses and our dis-ease.
So what do you do with all of this?
In this weeks episode I’m going to share with you the 4 FREE and easy things I am bringing into my life to start moving emotions out of my body, healing this burnout and coming home to myself bit by bit.
What’s next?
Check out these conversation to start healing your burn out
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